lost-faiths

Silent, quickly flowing moments. Gasps of air in a cool autumn. Sands of day dropping to the cascading mountains of life's experiences, passing us by, quick and rushing. Blurs of thoughts and people and things, rushing by as the grains drop down.

Nineteen. Whole world ahead, Broken life behind. Drugs and sex Knock at the door. Boom Boom Boom. Little Pig, Little Pig, Let us in. Exhale. Temptation for false hope Pour from your needles And your lines of dust. Pour another shot of venom Plastic cups bring warmth and the promise of happiness. Exhale. Maybe this time Will be different. Maybe he will call. Pick up my panties from the floor Awkward morning after filled with Awkward silences and stolen glances. Exhale. Pick yourself up Open your eyes to what you've become. Uncertain and insecure eyes Stare back in the mirror. Paint them dark to hid the pain Even fr

sitting alone i cry myself to sleep i loved you you left me end of story. the tears sting as they fall down my cheek denial, depression, defeat. i live only for you the one i love but no longer do i have what i though would always be there. my rock, my soul, my life my love. my heart shatters my back stabbed and bleeding crimson truth. i remember this was once real the feelings inside between us both. our once true love you betrayed i believed.

this is me erin pushed to the edge no! over the edge about ready to crack no! cracked stressed to the point of exhaustion tired of being myself ready to give in tired of fighting head pounding with what you want me to be disallusions warped reflections shattered images of the ideal what is perfect what is right a cookie cutter shape far from a perfect fit secretly hurtful words stab at my heart adding to my despair pull yourself together now don't give up on me not now too late. i try my hardest not to lose faith i can pull through but you just turn away and say you understand do you? really? you stare at

Sandman Erin Stewart The lightning flashed as she ran down the street. She could hear him, could feel him. He was close, so close. A crash from ahead caused her to scream, and she quickly darted down an alley to her right. She paused for a moment next to a large stack of wooden crates. Rain was pouring down now, and she pushed back her soaked hair. Her eyes darted, taking in her surroundings. Down the alley, where she had entered, she could see the faint yellow glow of the street lights. But, no one was following her. For the first time, in what seemed like years to her, air filled her lungs. Her heart began to slow as her breathing becam